urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69 Honey Bunch broken_princess 2005-05-10T07:58:52Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:5234 2005-05-10T07:58:52Z 2005-05-10T07:58:52Z HIlary Duff I screwed up on the whole fasting thing today, but its ok because tomorrow is another day! Is there anyway that we can promote this community? If I new how to do it I would! This is a really awesome community and I think it would be better if more people joined. <br /><br />Think thin, and all your dreams will come true!<br /><br />xoxxo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:5079 2005-05-06T23:52:55Z 2005-05-06T23:52:55Z CW:115 <br />STGW1:110 <br />STGW2:100 <br />LTGW1:95 <br />LTGW2:90 <br />LTGW3:83<br />LW: 86<br />HW: 123<br /><br />Livejoural Username: deep_down69<br />Age:15<br />Male/Female:Female<br />Height:5''2<br />Weight:116<br />BMI:21<br />Eating disorder and for how long:EDNOS ana for a year, currently EDNOS<br />Have you been diagnosed?:NO<br />Comments (if any): Pressue from friends is how I got this disorder, all my freinds were thinner than me and they used to tell me that I was fat. And now when I look at myself all I see is this big fat blob. I hate myself. My parents have control over everything that I do, eating is one thing in my life that I have control over. I love feeling empty inside. I have no respect for my parents at all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:4665 2005-05-06T07:39:00Z 2005-05-06T07:39:00Z Today I havent done too bad, all I ate was half a sausage and a spoon full of noodles. Im pround of myself for once in this week. Tomorrow on going on a 24hour fast, then 100cals. Sounds good to me!<br />Right my beauties im going for a run!<br /><br />Muah urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:4502 2005-05-03T06:38:03Z 2005-05-03T06:38:03Z My computer broke again! But its fixed now so yeah! I have done so shit these last few days im such a pig oink oink oink! I am not going to let this happen to me again! I must have had like 100000000000000000000 cals over the weekend, cuz I drunk so muuch alcohol! I am pathetic.<br />Tomorrow Im restricting to under 350 cals per day. Does anyone want to do this with me? I just find it easier when I have someone doing it with me. Had an economics test today man I hate eco Im so shit at it.<br />Ok I kind of has this problem and Im not really sure what to do.<br />I like this guy and he likes me back but the only thing is, is that he has a girlfriend. We are always texting each other and stuff. Last night he told me that he really likes me, but he also likes his gf, we flirt and stuff but now I think its getting out of control. Last night I told him that I was going to stop texting him and stay away for a while because I didnt want his gf to get hurt. However he was all like no dont leave me I dont want you to leave.<br />I feel like he is just trying to be the man and have a gf and a girl on the go... Ive tried to stay away from him but I love him so much! What should I do?? Im so sad and angry at everyone because of this!<br /><br />Being depressed is good for me at the moment as I dont want to eat. Right now my stomach feels empty and I am loving this feeling, I wish I could feel it all the time. Empty inside<br /><br />Think thin<br /><br />Jaz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:4298 2005-04-09T08:42:06Z 2005-04-09T08:42:06Z <p><font color="#333399">Fasting tomorrow! My double bed is in my room now yay! Done two hours of exercise yay! But going to do some more later!</font></p> <p><font color="#993399" size="6"><strong>CW:115 STGW1:110 STGW2:100 LTGW1:95&nbsp; LTGW2:90&nbsp; LTGW3:83</strong></font></p> <p><font color="#ff0000">I AM GOING TO REACH MY GOALS! NOBODY CAN HOLD ME DOWN!<br></font><br><font color="#33ff33" size="5"><strong>IM NOT GOING TO GIVE INTO FOOD! FOOD IS EVIL....IT MAKES ME FAT!</strong></font></p> <p><font color="#6633ff" size="7">Think thin</font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:3961 2005-04-03T10:25:45Z 2005-04-03T10:25:45Z <font color="#993399"><strong>Just got back from dance! Purged last night and this morning! Im going to start a liquid fast tomorrow and if I fuck it up, which Im not, I am going to restrict! I have felt sick all day since I purged this morning, ahh wll Im sure I will be fine by tomorrow! As tomorrow I am going to start my fast! I dont know why I do so crappy in the weekends I am such I fucken failure! Oh well I cant take back the past and I have to move on as tomorrow is a new week!<br>Its going to be a week of success!<br><br><font size="5">THIN IS IN, THINK THIN</font><br><br>Me huggs kiss</strong></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:3711 2005-03-30T08:44:14Z 2005-03-30T08:44:14Z Started my fast today at 7.00am on 30 March, it is now 8.41pm and I have only had water and diet coke! I am going to reach 100lbs by the end of April! Yay this is the first time in ages that I have had a postitive post!<br />I had netball for an hour at lunch along with work and dance. I have also written up a food and exercisae diary for inspiration! I just hope I dont blow it like I have done in the last few weeks!<br /><br />100 lbs here I come!<br /><br />Love ya urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:3349 2005-03-24T07:40:47Z 2005-03-24T07:40:47Z Yesterday and the day before I was doing great on my fast. However yesterday I had a really bad headache and it wouldnt go away. I woke up in the night and my throat was so sore I couldnt even swallow. So today I went to the doctors and he just gave me some medicine! He didnt even notice I am ana because I am so fat at the moment! My arms are so huge and my stomach is bulging over my pants! Everytime I try to fast I always break it. Mum made me eat a pie before, I cant believe it of all things a pie! Then after that I just kept on eating! I had pizza, and chocolate, because my parents made me! But before this was even worse I made myself eat ice cream because my throat was so sore! I cant purge as my throat is killing me and I have run out of laxatives! I didnt even go to school today!<br />Tomorrow (friday) we are going away on holiday to a beach house, I think it will be great as I will spend most of the time at the beach, and my parents wont nag me about food. But by being at the beach house there is no computer there so I wont be able to post until next tuesday! Sorry babes! But I know you will all stay strong and not give into food! I will start a fast tomorrow and tell my parents that I am way to sick to eat and if they try to make me eat I will just walk out of the house! Water and diet coke and green tea sounds about right to me!<br />Sorry for the negative post, I just thought I better let you all no that I am still alive!<br />Think thin, stay strong I have faith in all of you!<br />I know you can reach your goals!<br /><br />Love Jaz<br />XoXoX urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:3185 2005-03-15T03:53:02Z 2005-03-15T03:53:02Z I am so pathetic at the moment I am just letting everything get to me. Im starting a fast tomorrow and I am going to go for 15 days, after that I am going to do 250cals a day for one week, I will then fast for another week and taake it from there. My boyfriend dumped me so I feel like shit at the moment! I am now determined to reach my goal! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:2916 2005-03-01T06:02:14Z 2005-03-01T06:02:14Z Fasting tomorrow, no matter what it takes, im tired of caring! I just want one thing and that is to be thin, why cant anybody accept that? Fasting tomorrow water only, IM sick of everybody having control over me, I just dont give a fuck! At the moment all I want to do is break down and cry, every second of the day feels like an hour! Fuck my life, but at least I have ana to turn to! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:2764 2005-02-28T05:43:54Z 2005-02-28T05:43:54Z Eminem Encore I have no feeling anymore, Ive given up caring. Im so alone, no one understands me anymore, I just sit and stare. Smiling means nothing its just an expression. Im so fucking sick of my mind games. Fasting tomorrow other wise im going to cut again, Im sick of it aye! Why cant my life go to plan?<br />Feeling alone! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:2532 2005-02-23T08:27:19Z 2005-02-23T08:27:19Z Im doing so shit, I do great in the day but when it comes to dinner time, my parents make me eat! Im soo sick of them, I just want to be fucken thin! Fasting tomorrow, Im not eating a thing, drinking diet coke and water! Fasting until Next thursday! Feel free to join!<br /><br />STAY STRONG<br />JAZ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:2182 2005-02-15T05:19:27Z 2005-02-15T05:19:27Z My parents are driving me crazy and my boyfriend is making me eat, my friends are keeping tabs on me! Fuck why wont they just leave me alone! I have the right to do what I want! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:1713 2005-02-08T06:43:35Z 2005-02-08T06:43:35Z Nobodys home Fuck sake why wont anyone reply to me! All i want to do is discuss my obsession with someone! Im 116 and I want to get down to 83! My parents are going nuts at me because Im not eating at all! I need some excuses to get out of eating! Someone please help me! I will be you buddy too!<br /> Ive been anorexic for a year my lowest weight was 86! <br />Im starting a fast tomorrow! Does any one wanna do one with me?<br />You are all goregous!<br />Stay strong!<br />Jasmine<br />You can email me at angel_stoopy@hotmail.com urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:1346 2005-02-08T03:05:54Z 2005-02-08T03:05:54Z Falling away from me Hey im just new to this community, but I have posted on here a few times. Ive been anorexic for a year now... Im 33hrs into my fast, Ive just been on tea and water! Um im starting to run out of excuses fot getting out of the house..and excuses for not eating, I was wondering if there was anyone that could help me out? Today has been pretty good only had a cup of tea and 4 glasses of water! Whoot whoot go me! How is everyone else going at the moment?<br />Hope you are all going well!<br />You are all beautiful, stay strong and thin thin!<br />Jaz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:1065 2005-02-06T06:02:36Z 2005-02-06T06:02:36Z Korn cd Im starting a fast tomorrow from monday to wednesday! Who wants to join me? Im doing just water and tea... but you can do any liquid! My head is spinnig at the moment and im not sure why! I think that I might be coming down with a cold because I went swimming yesterday! Im 116 and my goal is 98! Help me to reach that! You guys are great supporters! Stick together guys! You are all goregous! Think thin... my boyfriend still isnt talking to me! Whos up for starting a fast on monday!<br />Stay strong babes...think thin!<br />Jaz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:953 2005-02-06T04:04:21Z 2005-02-06T04:04:21Z Wake up Im sick an tired of looking at myself in the mirror and seeing fat! FAT FAT FAT! ALl I want to do is scream! Ive been so angry latley! What is the best liquid to fast on? And how long should I do it for... I've tried doing it for a week but im not too sure. Does anyone want to start a fast with me tomorrow? I think Im just going to do a water and tea one! I dont no how long I will do it for though! Well Im going to go and listen to some music!<br />Stay strong my lovlies and think thin!<br />Love ya<br />Jaz urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:deep_down69:572 2005-02-05T23:43:32Z 2005-02-05T23:43:32Z lala I have started to fast today, had 3 glasses of orange juice... im 116 goal 98... I think im going to go have a glass of water!